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Wednesday, June 23, 2010
i'm glad i went for working camp(:
i see osl for what it is in a clearer way now.
not completely, but definitely much more.
i'm starting to feel connected to Grubs, to Team 1, and to OSL as a whole! :D
i made more friends with osl mates and mentors! i had fun(:
i'm excited for the rest of the journey.
i'm starting to find more meaning in the things we do and how we reflect,
because i quote ashley: pc is bs. and yes i'm so glad chia kept emphasising on the fact that honesty is a very important factor in teams, if we want to progress and all. i used to think the people here all seemed to be wanting this for themselves. for the title,glory,idk. perhaps that was the wrong impression selection camp gave me. and the reflections we did, they were pointless and dragged on just to fill the alloted time slot. up until now.
although some parts are still rather fake to me, i'm beginning to see the icy mask melting, and i'm happy. i hope we'll be one big family soon, working together for a common goal, which is to serve(:
i frowned when:
she said osl was the highest sls in rgs, that everyone looks up to osl. like we were the best sl or something. i think sl projects are not ranked by title and like how hard we work, and how far we go out into the world, but by the impact we give the people we're serving, and ultimately if we fulfil our purpose of serving!
but maybe she didnt mean it in that way, i shall give her the benefit of the doubt.
when the mentors asked something along the lines of "what do you think you're going there for?", i frowned when:
she said we were going to teach the kids what we know, so that one day they can become like us.
hidden message: everyone wants to be like us.
but what makes you think we're any better than them? you subconsciously(or consciously) keep on weaving these kind of messages in what you say, and i'm like ):
but yeah i get that maybe she means they want the kind of education we have, compared to their own, cos education means so much to them.
she said that we're going there to teach the kids what we know, so that they can gain a lot in life and have a better standard in english and thus have a brighter future. that we can try to give them a chance to experience what kind of learning styles we have here, cos they will never have that chance.
i mean. the way she said it, she totally meant it that we were better then them, and we were giving them a lot of things, and they should be grateful for it.
grrr! this is like, similar to the previous one. both are partly true, but both people have the idea that we're like, higher than them, that we are giving them, and that's just it. as if the people are gaining a lot from what you have to give.
i hate how people don't see that we gain so much from them too! not that i've gone on it yet, but that's what should happen. and the way they put things its like, they're standing, holding out this precious thing a crouching, poor child wants- education. the way they dont crouch along with the child, interact and feel what he's feeling, it's weird. how is that serving? its the same as donating to things because you're rich, you can. it's serving from a distance, half-heartedly. they're all nice people really, but i think this is a mentality most of us subconsciously have. ):
our mentor then asked why are we here, and what we think service is.
i frowned when nobody could answer D:
does this mean that when we strip away the politically correct answers, we're really left with nothing? i dont believe it.
when i think, i'm here because God put me to. because i want to serve in love, and i think i can learn to. and i can contribute.
its all so clear, so easy when you put God in the picture, and so blur and confusing when you take Him out. service is to serve God. service in the world is to serve people? i guess by serving people you serve God. ._.
i guess its the trauma from the previous questions, all of us were dumbfounded and had a momentary brainfreeze. some of them said it was too overwhelming.
our mentor told us to think about it, about our answer.
i knew my answer from the start.
i hope they find theirs soon.
chia, stop saying you're a horrible person.
you dont believe that(:
fearfully and wonderfully made yeah!
AWKWARD TURTLE FTW.
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Disturb me, O Lordd!!
OSL
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Wednesday, June 23, 2010
i'm glad i went for working camp(:
i see osl for what it is in a clearer way now.
not completely, but definitely much more.
i'm starting to feel connected to Grubs, to Team 1, and to OSL as a whole! :D
i made more friends with osl mates and mentors! i had fun(:
i'm excited for the rest of the journey.
i'm starting to find more meaning in the things we do and how we reflect,
because i quote ashley: pc is bs. and yes i'm so glad chia kept emphasising on the fact that honesty is a very important factor in teams, if we want to progress and all. i used to think the people here all seemed to be wanting this for themselves. for the title,glory,idk. perhaps that was the wrong impression selection camp gave me. and the reflections we did, they were pointless and dragged on just to fill the alloted time slot. up until now.
although some parts are still rather fake to me, i'm beginning to see the icy mask melting, and i'm happy. i hope we'll be one big family soon, working together for a common goal, which is to serve(:
i frowned when:
she said osl was the highest sls in rgs, that everyone looks up to osl. like we were the best sl or something. i think sl projects are not ranked by title and like how hard we work, and how far we go out into the world, but by the impact we give the people we're serving, and ultimately if we fulfil our purpose of serving!
but maybe she didnt mean it in that way, i shall give her the benefit of the doubt.
when the mentors asked something along the lines of "what do you think you're going there for?", i frowned when:
she said we were going to teach the kids what we know, so that one day they can become like us.
hidden message: everyone wants to be like us.
but what makes you think we're any better than them? you subconsciously(or consciously) keep on weaving these kind of messages in what you say, and i'm like ):
but yeah i get that maybe she means they want the kind of education we have, compared to their own, cos education means so much to them.
she said that we're going there to teach the kids what we know, so that they can gain a lot in life and have a better standard in english and thus have a brighter future. that we can try to give them a chance to experience what kind of learning styles we have here, cos they will never have that chance.
i mean. the way she said it, she totally meant it that we were better then them, and we were giving them a lot of things, and they should be grateful for it.
grrr! this is like, similar to the previous one. both are partly true, but both people have the idea that we're like, higher than them, that we are giving them, and that's just it. as if the people are gaining a lot from what you have to give.
i hate how people don't see that we gain so much from them too! not that i've gone on it yet, but that's what should happen. and the way they put things its like, they're standing, holding out this precious thing a crouching, poor child wants- education. the way they dont crouch along with the child, interact and feel what he's feeling, it's weird. how is that serving? its the same as donating to things because you're rich, you can. it's serving from a distance, half-heartedly. they're all nice people really, but i think this is a mentality most of us subconsciously have. ):
our mentor then asked why are we here, and what we think service is.
i frowned when nobody could answer D:
does this mean that when we strip away the politically correct answers, we're really left with nothing? i dont believe it.
when i think, i'm here because God put me to. because i want to serve in love, and i think i can learn to. and i can contribute.
its all so clear, so easy when you put God in the picture, and so blur and confusing when you take Him out. service is to serve God. service in the world is to serve people? i guess by serving people you serve God. ._.
i guess its the trauma from the previous questions, all of us were dumbfounded and had a momentary brainfreeze. some of them said it was too overwhelming.
our mentor told us to think about it, about our answer.
i knew my answer from the start.
i hope they find theirs soon.
chia, stop saying you're a horrible person.
you dont believe that(:
fearfully and wonderfully made yeah!
AWKWARD TURTLE FTW.
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Disturb me, O Lordd!!
