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Monday, May 31, 2010
4:34 PM
this, a secret in my heart.
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
Ad astra, to the stars.
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Trying to be perfect Trying not to let you down Honesty is honestly The hardest thing for me right now While the floors underneath our feet Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling I still stand here holding up the roof Cause it's easier than telling the truth
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Nothing left unsaid. i wish.
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Sunday, May 30, 2010
GSS 3:52 PM
today i bought so many things! i love gss.
i bought 2 skirts, a yellow tank top, two shirts, a collared cute shirt thingy, and two bottles of nailpolish!
yay. haha i'm rarely in the mood of trying things okay. my mom was pleased with me :D
but this euphoria is temporal i guess. haha i will start on chem today.
btw: sign up for a ministry laaaaa ;D
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Saturday, May 29, 2010
sec 3 lbe 11:22 PM
level based event today. i'd say it was fun(:
haha only two guys from the guy's sgs came today, bert and cliff haha how sad is that. i guess i did bond more with the rest today(: pizza was goood. and i totally stank after that haha.
worship prac was idk. sigh i dont know if i'm doing a really bad job. no one tells me anything. am i expected to do better? cos i could if i knew i was supposed to. is this flawed in itself?
ohwell.
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Friday, May 28, 2010
INFJ Counselor 10:56 PM
haha this quiz. is quite cool actually(: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/JungQuiz.html# the last time i took it, i was still INFJ hahaaa. i urge you to take it! (: haha i'm just dumping this huge pile of words here just so i can save it(:
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Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging by Marina Margaret Heiss
INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.
INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.
Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).
This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.
Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.
In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.
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INFJ by Joe Butt(couldn't help lauging oops)
Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.
INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ. "There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.
INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately. Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.
-Introverted iNtuition Introverted intuitives, INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and "live in the here and now" of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect. Their amazing ability to deduce the inner workings of the mind, will and emotions of others gives INFJs their reputation as prophets and seers. Unlike the confining, routinizing nature of introverted sensing, introverted intuition frees this type to act insightfully and spontaneously as unique solutions arise on an event by event basis.
-Extraverted Feeling Extraverted feeling, the auxiliary deciding function, expresses a range of emotion and opinions of, for and about people. INFJs, like many other FJ types, find themselves caught between the desire to express their wealth of feelings and moral conclusions about the actions and attitudes of others, and the awareness of the consequences of unbridled candor. Some vent the attending emotions in private, to trusted allies. Such confidants are chosen with care, for INFJs are well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals. This particular combination of introverted intuition and extraverted feeling provides INFJs with the raw material from which perceptive counselors are shaped.
-Introverted Thinking The INFJ's thinking is introverted, turned toward the subject. Perhaps it is when the INFJ's thinking function is operative that he is most aloof. A comrade might surmise that such detachment signals a disillusionment, that she has also been found lacking by the sardonic eye of this one who plumbs the depths of the human spirit. Experience suggests that such distancing is merely an indication that the seer is hard at work and focusing energy into this less efficient tertiary function.
-Extraverted Sensing INFJs are twice blessed with clarity of vision, both internal and external. Just as they possess inner vision which is drawn to the forms of the unconscious, they also have external sensing perception which readily takes hold of worldly objects. Sensing, however, is the weakest of the INFJ's arsenal and the most vulnerable. INFJs, like their fellow intuitives, may be so absorbed in intuitive perceiving that they become oblivious to physical reality. The INFJ under stress may fall prey to various forms of immediate gratification. Awareness of extraverted sensing is probably the source of the "SP wannabe" side of INFJs. Many yearn to live spontaneously; it's not uncommon for INFJ actors to take on an SP (often ESTP) role.
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Idealistic Portrait of the INFJ Counselor
Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes.
Counselors are scarce, little more than one percent of the population, and can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. They are highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life. Friends or colleagues who have known them for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that Counselors are flighty or scattered; they value their integrity a great deal, but they have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors tend to work effectively in organizations. They value staff harmony and make every effort to help an organization run smoothly and pleasantly. They understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others. As employees or employers, Counselors are concerned with people's feelings and are able to act as a barometer of the feelings within the organization.
Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.
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The Protector
As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.
In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
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All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:
-Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom. -Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic. -Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials. -Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.
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Thursday, May 27, 2010
Note to God 10:35 PM
to kim:
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world your best and it may never be enough; Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Theresa
kim i guess this quote really is something i really try to apply to my life. and I know you try hard too. so don't lose faith, you bring much needed light to a world in darkness.
loveyou.
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1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (New International Version)
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
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i guess today was fun(: haha i shall skip sports fest and gpa and math and physics. and i will talk about choir dinner(:
haha this is our first choir dinner! we are awesome(: but like, so many people werent there! ): esp from our batchh. but haha we were a bunch of retarded shizzez and i had a lot of fun(: i cannot control my laughter, if you havent realised :D once i start laughing a lot i cant stop(: oh wellzzz. you gotta love this bunch of people.
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
:D
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today is pentecost sunday.
that means that three important things happened on this date: -my church was founded woohoo. -the Holy spirit descended on the disciples/the church started forming woohoo. -GDOP was formed woohoo.
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i'm so tired it's almost 1 am and i badly need to do overdue homework! but ah well.
tagrepliess.
Kim hey kimmmm! haha ily la, you tag so much my blog feels more alive :D yes thankyou for your inspiring quotes and stuff! and oh yeah the "life doesnt stop for anyone" picture was taken for your tumblr ohnoes did i forget to credit you? haha i like reading your tumblr! continue posting yeah, love. and yes i love my family haha they are awesome i will invite you over to my house! :D and yes also, i know my batch's busking is great, right? :D glad you think so too :D THE SOLOIST WAS AWESOMEEE, i love her most 8D your reply is so long omg! xD
micht haha this is unexpected ttm! but yay now i know your secret(or not so secret) link! :D thankss, and we saw your message on the whiteboard! but we didnt get to see you haha come and visit soon then(:
stef hallooo stef! haha this random person from my lit class walked up to me and was like "hey, it's the potato man!" and i was like wts. (: yes its freaky that you read my blog.
emeline you're the best, em (:
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Saturday, May 22, 2010
10:56 PM
Take a breath I pull myself together Just another step till I reach the door You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you I wish that I could tell you something To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I won't give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice Its drowning in a whisper It's just skin and bones There's nothing left to take And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall Oh you know I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
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idk how to make it less painful.
ily okay? sigh this is better late than never ):
i would cry with you if you needed me to. promise.
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my family makes me feel loved 8:14 PM
I love food! it makes me so happy! :D just eating nice simple home-cooked food makes me very very happy (: today, i went down for dinner and i ate egg which my bro cooked woahhh(it actually tasted quite nice) and veg and beef and a lot of other stuff and mushroom soup(which my bro cooked also what is wrong with him today O_O) and a few spoons of mutton soup and then i drank green bean soup YAY. my aunt knows i love it :D
okay it seems like i ate alot huh. but idk why i felt so HAPPYYYY.
haha and my aunt was there talking to me about... eh i forgot xD but yeah then as i was walking up i looked at my house and i thought about my familyyyy. and i decided this post will be for them! :D
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i love my family so much! i think my parents are the awesomest ever. they work hard and earn lots, and we don't spend like a lottt of time together, but they never ever ever make me feel like i'm not loved! i dont think we ever had major family problems before, hmmmm. and they are both super cool can i love my parents ahhhh. haha if we ever go bankrupt or something and had to sell all our stuff i'd really be fine about it, as long as we're all togetherr(:
my dad is so talented and smart and everything ahh! okay he's from ri, but that was last time right! he was in a gazillion ccas or something! like choir, band, judo, guitar ETCC omg i cant even remember. and he's super smart! and he's good at sports like crazy idk what he's not good at ): i can ask him about any subject and he'd know. except my mom would be better to go to for chinese.
my mom! is super awesome also! like see, my mom was chinese educated(from dhs) and my dad was english educated so like, that's the best of both worlds yayy. and she's also so smart! esp in math. and my mom was in band and guitar and basketball or something gahhh! and my parents both can sing YAY.
and they're totally not lame or anything they understand and i can be pissed off/ emo about something and not want to talk to them and i'd tell them i dont want to talk about it and they'd understand! and then after awhile i'd tell them, yay. oh and they so dont care about results, as long as i'm happy omg heartheart. me: "i'm going to fail physics!" them: "oh, really?" -smile- me: "?!"
i tell them everythingg! choir stuff. church stuff. relationship stuff yay i love my parents. oh about relationship stuff right, they are super cool! well both my brothers are attached currently, and my parents are so cute about it haha! i stalk my bro's girlfriends with them HAHAHA. (well i think my bros dont read my blog, so its okay to say, right?) lovelove.
and in the whole of my life i've seen them fight only once! when i was like P1 or something and was watching tom and jerry on tv with bro. omg so vivid. in which my mom said shut up. oh and that probably is the worst swear word i ever heard both of them say in my entire life.
and my parents' love for each other is inspiring ttm. its like they're still dating haha they are so cuteeeee seriously OMGGGGG.
haha i think one of the best things is they never lose their temper with us unnecessarily. and it's cool how i spend my entire life in their room and not my own. haha mine's just for sleeping, but when i get home i just get my stuff and jump on their bed and like cuddle in the blankets and do my stuff. and my bros used to like dominate the floor also, but lj moved to his room early this year, haha he likes solitude. and i think he was worried about posture hahaha wtv. haha plus, the internet connection is better down there :D and they nag a bit when i'm dirty, but aiya, haha it's a habit now. and i bet they secretly like it! haha once when i was pissed off i went to my room and stayed there the entire day omg so weird for me xD and they were so worried heehee.
and so much more, like how my annoying bros always tell them they want thisthis food for supper at like 12 am on a weekday (weird cravings) and my dad's so sweet and cool he just like brings them there. the list doesnt end.
okayokay. now on to my brothers. haha they two used to be people i didnt like. and i'd kick them in all the wrong places during pillow fights.
but then we all grew up. and now they're super nice(: and they're cool too haha, they have their own talents :D my family can totally be a BAND seriously we can play so many things!
yayyy! WE ARE THE COOLEST FAMILY EVER I LOVE YOU FOREVERRR.
oh and my aunt who lived with us since forever, she's not married and she's my mom's oldest sister. but she cares a lot for us and haha she's cool in her own way! and she's nice to make fun of cos everytime her face goes super red and she cant control herself when she starts laughing hahaha! and she cooks nice things! and teaches my maid to cook nice things YAY i love my aunt :D and she's so thoughtful in a awkward way haha she nags all the time but she eats her food super slowly sometimes goes to talk to our maid after she's done, because i always come down for dinner late and she's scared i will be lonely haha. either that or she's lonely herself. but hmm it works both ways! (:
and my uncle who's also my mom's older brother who lived with us for like a long time also cos he and his family... had some idk what haha. i used to not like him but nowadays i'm beginning to think he's not so bad after all, cos he must be quite lonely himself, and cos he/大姨 gave me the nice sport shoes one day before 2.4 and took super long explaning to me about how to wear it etc hahaaa epic. hha he's some sports crazy dood, goes jogging like 30 km everyday or something(he's so free) but oh well. at least he puts up with my drumming yay.
okay and if i begin on my cousins, this post will never end they rock too!
happysighhh, my family pwns(:
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thank you God, for blessing me with so muchhhh. my family, my friends, my life. i am eternally greatful, and i know that it all comes from You. i will not take anything for granted! but You give and You take away right? i have a feeling something's going to happen haha :/ hmm if anything does happen, all i ask is that You help me trust You. please also let me remember this prayer.
Amen.
:D
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okay i feeel stupid == my bro suddenly just burst out laughing in front of his comp near me like five minutes after i posted this. why? i looked at his screen and saw my blog. omggg i thought he didnt read! LOL what is this! oh well :D he's prolly gonna read this too. LZ YOU SUCK. you ego better not inflate too much i will kick you. not in wrong places dont worry(:
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to flora 1:30 AM
omg ): i'm so so so so sorry. sigh. i'm sorry i forgot. i was so caught up with other things. i really am sorry D: i promised i'd remember, and i broke that promise.
rachiek you're right, a lot of things changed with time. but you're still important to me, omg i hope you know that.
i know you'll forgive me, or maybe you already have, but sigh this is wrong.
we need to do something!
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A Night to Remember'10 12:53 AM
mommy, it's overrrrrr! D:
sighhhh it's really over i can't believe it. yesterday i couldnt believe it was here and now i can't believe it's over. NUUUUUUU!
well yesterday night was truly great :D i think we had a fantastic audience la seriously. haha, love you, all who came to support us! thanks for the pretty flowers, i feel supremely happy when i look at it! hope you had lots of fun, like us! (:
combined! i dont know how it was, frankly. personally i thought last year's combined was better, sec one's combined was worse. but the seniors all seem to think that combined this year is good. hmmmmm. hahahahahahha i think we were blasting and rushing for a lot of the songs. little dynamics.... xD itsuki was a bit disappointinggg... and plum was superduper off for alto two doodoodoodoodooo parts!! but the audience liked it anyway :D ahhhhhhhh i think everything was okay :D me heels were killing me omg. at the end of hoj i was soo relieved. i was even more relieved when we had to walk off and i actually could command my legs to move! i was so scared they'd just collapse under me on stage! tsk! 8D
busking! AD ASTRAAAA. ily lots. ily kim and b. we rocked okay! everyone said so! really! :D IF YOU THINK SO, TAG. :D (i will be sad if no one does ): ) next year we'll start earlier and do something FABULOUS. (:
haha also, good job sec 4s(:
musical! omg this was the bestttt. haha i was so worried like anything okay! ASHLYNNA! you'll probably never see this, but you have like the whole choir loving you now. YOU ROCK. (: the audience kept laughing at everythingggg! it was super encouraging seriously, i love the audience(: haha all the scenes went quite smoothly! AHHH THANK YOU GOD. I LOVE YOU MUACKS.
my scenes! now i have like new nicknames like "potato man" or smth!!! WHAT IS THIS O_O HAHA I'M GOING CRAZY AND EMBARRASSED JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.
basically musical was a blast :D our dancing was .... for some of us, and our singing actually was quite cmi towrds the end, but i think every single one of us really enjoyed ourselves thoroughly on the stage. i'm so proud of us, rgschoir. no one else can pull this off i swear! (: people will talk about this for awhile now((((: rgschoir really made it A Night to Remember :D
i have a confession to make!(uh sound familiar, amanda?)
I LOVE RGSCHOIR WITH ALL MY HEART♥ i love you, rgschoir, i really really do.
i thank God sooo muchhhh for blessing me with the chance to know you, to love you, to spend time with you, and to sing with you.
we'll keep the faith! and we'll sing for the love of music ♥
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and yet now that concert's over, the seniors are going to be leaving soon, right? when? ): i'm gonna miss them loads.
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Tuesday, May 18, 2010
closer 9:59 PM
我的任性 我的固执 我的胡闹 我的不谅解
你的包容
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When the unexpected happens, you're caught off-guard. It's not a very nice experience. But sometimes, it leaves a tingly warm feeling in your heart. I like the unexpected, to a certain extent.
Thank you, for caring when I least expected you to.
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TWO.
i'm putting all my trust in you God. Your love never fails.
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Monday, May 17, 2010
three. 10:02 PM
this is currently what i have done for english aa:
English Alternative Assessment Loo Cheng Yi (14) 308
OMG HOW DO I START THIS AHHH.
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today i was wasting my time at the busstop waiting for 966 to come. i waited 25 minutes i think. and i was just sitting there, thinking. and as i thought and thought i got depressed. concert. pts/aas. friendships needing time and effort to sustain which i clearly lack now. God. concert notes. pile of undone homework. worship. etccc.
and then i looked up at the sky, and all was calm. it wasn't very pretty or anything, it wasn't particularly blue or clear. it was just this blueish-grey colour, like after the sky wept(cos it rained in the morning). and it was framed by the giant trees on the highway. ordinary really, but it was breathtakingly beautiful. ._.
God, you hold me now.
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Sunday, May 16, 2010
Brokenhearted Love 8:08 PM
A choir girl is always singing, wherever she goes. She is full of emotions, the intense and the fluid. She is like a white-washed wall, upon which thousands of colours play like a rainbow. She sings for the love of music, releasing the soul within her. And above all, a true choir girl loves, with all her heart, and with her voice.
concert in four, we can do this(: Rgschoir♥
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Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
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Brokenhearted Love - this is really true. I've been wondering how to help some people get through what they're facing, and i guess this really made me see things clearer.
"People who are grieving need to know that they’re not alone. They need to know that their loss is somehow your loss too. Tell them that you visited the cemetery–not for brownie points, but because you want to remember with them. Tell them that you cried in the bathtub the other day. Tell them that when you hear a certain song it takes the breath out of your lungs.
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So if you’re wondering what you can give your grieving friend, I know it sounds totally cliche, but…give them your heart. Lay it bare. Entering into their pain and sharing your experience of the loss will be profoundly comforting."
Friend I don't know where you are And I don't know where you've been Maybe you're fighting for your life Or just about to throw the towel in But if you're crying out for mercy If there's no hope left at all If you've given everything you've got And you're still about to fall Well hold on, hold on, hold on
Cos I believe always, always Our Savior never fails Even when all faith is gone God knows our pain, and His promise remains:
He will be with you, always
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Saturday, May 15, 2010
we'll make it through, make it through 12:34 AM
i think, the worst is over :D the past week has been really horrible. haha everyone was a wreck. but ad astra is still going strong yeahhh. i can't express how much Ad Astra means to meee!
thankyou everyone who've been there helping and supporting us along the way(omg this sounds like a "thank you to all my fans!" kinda speech) but most importantly, thank you God. i prayed super hard, and then everything worked out. lovelovelovee you God, above all.
5 days!!! stressssss ttm. but every year it's rushed, isn't it? xD we always make it through, in the end. hope is such a wonderful thing. when things look incredibly bleak, i must always remember that God never gives you more than you can bear. you should, too(:
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so much workkkkk! -dies- i feel bad cause i dont think i can serve this week even though i'm rostered. sighh. really dont thnk so. choir prac full dress rehearsal. 8-1.30. then main cast prac ends at like 3? then if i get home at 4... i need to do physics pt badly. and drums coming also. guy coming at 6 to set up. how to get to church by 6.30 ):
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today was Micapella concert! uhm, it's masically a miked up acapella group consisting of 6 people! AHHHH. they are freaking good i was super impressed. that means they really are good == the bass was... i swoon. I LOVE BASSES TTM. i want to marry one D: okay the eugene guy(i have no idea what section he is in) is really cute(: the tenor has a really nice and powerful voice la, even though at the start i didnt have a good impression of him cos i couldnt tell if he was a guy or girl -.- the alto was.... the perfect pitch person(: hahaaa. didn't like her voice as much as the others though, although it was definitely good as well. soprano! celeste! :D haha i was like O_O i never knew she could sing. she was very cool(:
they did like guitar sounds and chinese instrument sounds, etc! i must experiment with mine someday. and THE BEATBOXER. WAS (Y). they were all also super hilarious. so even my brother didnt follow his plan of going there and falling asleep.
they're all so GOOD.
i never knew my previous piano teacher could sing like that! they go on like tours to perform in hong kong, taiwan, etc. grrrr.
so...where do i sign up? :D
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
10:22 PM
wanting you happy was always more important than just wanting you, isn't it?
(from rachel's tumblr)
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9:58 PM
omgggg. ican'ttakethisanymore, too.
what makes you think that you have a right to ask me if i'm okay, huh? you dont know anythingg. please dont ask if you dont actually care omg i'm so pissed off. i do my job. i read people's blogs everyday not cos i'm super free, but because i understand that it's a way people update others about their lives. and i care, thus i want to know.
i like being strong for others, but i'm sorry, i can't be there for you right now cos if you havent noticed, i'm kind of crumbling myself. if i could, i would. and its annoying how you guys have my link on your blogs and then you dont read it and then you expect me to tell you whats going on. if you dont read it, it really means you dont care, seriously. like you may think that blogs arent the way people should be interacting or whatever, but face it. if we dont spend enough time together, or if you dont have a single clue about my life, is it not important that you know what i'm thinking about? if not then fine, really.
ily just officially became nothing more than three meaningless words. if you love me, how can you not want to know? how can you? or was it just nice to have someone caring for you, and not giving back?
after i go to sleep and wake up tmr, i will be okay and i will still be there for you guys if you need me. because i actually do love you. if i said it, i mean it.
when will these people realise that sometimes people they should treasure could just slip past them like that? sigh, why is it always coming back down to this.
♥
wouldnt it be nice 7:08 PM
"i feel like i'm on top of the world!" "it's only the second floor, dude."
(:
so hmm 2.4 today. C. yay. (: lol.
-start of emo post-
hey you two, whats up? D: i'm so sad things are all falling apart now. why!!! we can't do this now, and i think you know it D:
everything's not okay ): i wish we could all just wake up tmr and be like super good. sighsighsigh. what are we going to do now. so many expectations. so many disappointments. i have a fear of facing all of that, honestly. guyssssss. 8/7 days. i'm trying to find hope and be strong too.
i realised i havent been praying about this D: sigh God, i fail to rely on you time and time again. i'm sorry D: i need you always, when i'm happy and when im sad.
all i need is You.
depressed. is there no solution? tsk all of them seem so undesirable. false dilemma? nah. i'm sad because i always thought we were awesome. i guess we were all complacent. -slaps face-
and you, hey i realised i've not been the best seatmate ever. this might a little late, cos we're like changing seats soon and all, but i just want you to know that i understand, and i will stop distracting you during class, and i will pay more attention so i can like help you if you need any. and hmm i will stop being annoying, basically. we can excel together! (:
love you too.
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so when you find that everything is crumbling around you, perhaps it isnt the loss of everything that upsets you, its when you see all the tiny secrets, falling out of the spaces they were hiding in. only by seeing the lies, are you then able to see the blinding truth. but at the end of it all, there's nothing left to fill up what's already gone.
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Every now and then I fall apart 11:21 PM
It's nice to know that people appreciate the littlest things you do, you know? even when they dont know it's you. It's also nice to know that people trust you.
i wonder if you ever feel that way too. you're so confusing. we can't figure you out. like, are you good or bad? you can be a total hypocrite at times and then you can be super sweet. i dont know what to make of you. thus i shall stay away.
I love chia, because we can talk to each other about anything and everything, even about each other, and be completely honest and brutal about it. cos we understand. sighhh. will i ever find another person as special as you? i think not. (hopefully you don't see this, cos then your head would totally swell i know it) and will i ever find someone who will always want to talk to me even when most of the times i'm the one who says bye first and yet we have this mutual understanding that our love for each other is equal? haix. i think not ): chia ily. for everything.
gahhh i used to have this period of time that as hard as i want to cry, tears just won't come out. but nowadays, so many things can make me cry. or like, i think it's just things related to choir. maybe most of the things are in fact related to ad astra. i also know we have to be strong and everything, but i will confirm be super angry, and i will cry my eyes out if we are scraped. why huh. we are like, the most talented bunch of people aliveee. haha okay, not really, but when we're together we just click like magic. but what about our voices? it's honestly damn annoying when some people try less than others. and when has it become all about the solos?
we're not being the best we can be. can we all wake up now.
a note: kim your stupid tumblr, and b your stupid lj, grrr.
another note: some people who should be reading my blog arent reading it.
haha English Drama Society concert today was nothing but awesome(: i think i really undrstand what ms loo says. like even though their performance or presentation might not be perfect in terms of techinicality(like articulation of words was super lacking at times, but who am i to say this right), they looked like they were thoroughly enjoying themselves, and also they connected with the audience a lot. they weren't scared that they looked lame or anything, and they all had this look that said "i'm the best there is, what are you gonna do about it".
rgschoirrrr. i'm sure we can do this :D we'll rock 20th May.
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DRUMSET FINALLY COMING YEZZZZZZZ.
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main cast peopleee, ily all ahahaa.
but ad astra, imyD:
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Nite(: memories, lol.
♥
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
someday i'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me 11:45 PM
haha i feel like launching into a lengthy post about how ad astra is awesome and how each individual is so unique and cool. but i think i'll save that for concert notes :D
i think our turkey is like, a true work of art. how can something look so cute and yet delicious at the same time? :D weiling would probably like it more, because it does look like a chicken from certain angles. but it is be a turkey! :D
but i gotta say this: kim, you have a really nice heart.
(:
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God, forgive me for today. i did something very wrong. why should i be annoying when my solo doesnt show off my voice well? i should be thankful i even have one. and even if i didnt it wouldnt matter, because i'm beatboxing for adastra and we all only have one ultimate goal- which is to sound good. and i think the part i'm most humbled about is, i shouldnt have to need to show off my voice in the first place. i dont need to get anyone's appproval but you, Lord. i need to rememeber this, pleasee.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
♥
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
给我一个思念的拥抱 11:42 PM
ahh. i'm missing you guys like crazy. i missed so much of your lives! and you guy missed so much of mine.. what if i didnt choose to start over and come to rgs huh? everything would be so different now. i wouldnt have joined dhs choir for nuts. haha no offense.
omg rgschoir. one thing i'll never regret. (and we'll never ever ever never ever ever never ever never ever ever forget!)
16(more like 15 now) days to awesomeness. -combined pieces.... well they're kinda collecting dust? but i'm sure we can do a great job once ms loo starts polishing again, right? :D -busking. okay guys we so need to work on this we can do everything we want to, if we put in our hearts souls and minds to it! :D i mean, we're ad astra man, come on! oh plus, we really have to make our turkey O_O -musical. it could be really fun, honestly. (: forget that some of us are out there and some of us arent. forget that some of us have solos or whatever. because when we're out there, we're just one RGSChoir.
MIEE LUBBSXZS EUUU SHOOOOO MUCHHHH! .___.
(i HAVE to remember to do concert notes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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Father And Mother I Love You
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i'm so proud of both of you! :D i dont even know if you two actually een read my blog, actually, but please please always remember to just trust God and leave everything to Him. i love you both loads(: after the hurt, comes the healing.
Some say love it is a river, that drowns the tender reed Some say love it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleed Some say love it is a hunger, an endless aching need I say love it is a flower, and you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long and you think that love is only, for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose
The Rose - Westlife
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Monday, May 3, 2010
lalala 6:48 PM
can't resist! tomato this is all YOUR FAULT i think i wasted like one hour of my life just looking through the comics. :D
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
Ad astra, to the stars.
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Trying to be perfect Trying not to let you down Honesty is honestly The hardest thing for me right now While the floors underneath our feet Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling I still stand here holding up the roof Cause it's easier than telling the truth
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Nothing left unsaid. i wish.
GSS
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Sunday, May 30, 2010
3:52 PM
today i bought so many things! i love gss.
i bought 2 skirts, a yellow tank top, two shirts, a collared cute shirt thingy, and two bottles of nailpolish!
yay. haha i'm rarely in the mood of trying things okay. my mom was pleased with me :D
but this euphoria is temporal i guess. haha i will start on chem today.
btw: sign up for a ministry laaaaa ;D
sec 3 lbe
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Saturday, May 29, 2010
11:22 PM
level based event today. i'd say it was fun(:
haha only two guys from the guy's sgs came today, bert and cliff haha how sad is that. i guess i did bond more with the rest today(: pizza was goood. and i totally stank after that haha.
worship prac was idk. sigh i dont know if i'm doing a really bad job. no one tells me anything. am i expected to do better? cos i could if i knew i was supposed to. is this flawed in itself?
ohwell.
INFJ Counselor
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Friday, May 28, 2010
10:56 PM
haha this quiz. is quite cool actually(: http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/JungQuiz.html# the last time i took it, i was still INFJ hahaaa. i urge you to take it! (: haha i'm just dumping this huge pile of words here just so i can save it(:
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Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging by Marina Margaret Heiss
INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.
INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.
Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).
This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.
Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.
In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.
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INFJ by Joe Butt(couldn't help lauging oops)
Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.
INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ. "There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.
INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately. Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.
-Introverted iNtuition Introverted intuitives, INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and "live in the here and now" of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect. Their amazing ability to deduce the inner workings of the mind, will and emotions of others gives INFJs their reputation as prophets and seers. Unlike the confining, routinizing nature of introverted sensing, introverted intuition frees this type to act insightfully and spontaneously as unique solutions arise on an event by event basis.
-Extraverted Feeling Extraverted feeling, the auxiliary deciding function, expresses a range of emotion and opinions of, for and about people. INFJs, like many other FJ types, find themselves caught between the desire to express their wealth of feelings and moral conclusions about the actions and attitudes of others, and the awareness of the consequences of unbridled candor. Some vent the attending emotions in private, to trusted allies. Such confidants are chosen with care, for INFJs are well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals. This particular combination of introverted intuition and extraverted feeling provides INFJs with the raw material from which perceptive counselors are shaped.
-Introverted Thinking The INFJ's thinking is introverted, turned toward the subject. Perhaps it is when the INFJ's thinking function is operative that he is most aloof. A comrade might surmise that such detachment signals a disillusionment, that she has also been found lacking by the sardonic eye of this one who plumbs the depths of the human spirit. Experience suggests that such distancing is merely an indication that the seer is hard at work and focusing energy into this less efficient tertiary function.
-Extraverted Sensing INFJs are twice blessed with clarity of vision, both internal and external. Just as they possess inner vision which is drawn to the forms of the unconscious, they also have external sensing perception which readily takes hold of worldly objects. Sensing, however, is the weakest of the INFJ's arsenal and the most vulnerable. INFJs, like their fellow intuitives, may be so absorbed in intuitive perceiving that they become oblivious to physical reality. The INFJ under stress may fall prey to various forms of immediate gratification. Awareness of extraverted sensing is probably the source of the "SP wannabe" side of INFJs. Many yearn to live spontaneously; it's not uncommon for INFJ actors to take on an SP (often ESTP) role.
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Idealistic Portrait of the INFJ Counselor
Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes.
Counselors are scarce, little more than one percent of the population, and can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. They are highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life. Friends or colleagues who have known them for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that Counselors are flighty or scattered; they value their integrity a great deal, but they have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors tend to work effectively in organizations. They value staff harmony and make every effort to help an organization run smoothly and pleasantly. They understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others. As employees or employers, Counselors are concerned with people's feelings and are able to act as a barometer of the feelings within the organization.
Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.
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The Protector
As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.
In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
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All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:
-Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom. -Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic. -Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials. -Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.
Note to God
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Thursday, May 27, 2010
10:35 PM
to kim:
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world your best and it may never be enough; Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Theresa
kim i guess this quote really is something i really try to apply to my life. and I know you try hard too. so don't lose faith, you bring much needed light to a world in darkness.
loveyou.
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1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (New International Version)
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
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i guess today was fun(: haha i shall skip sports fest and gpa and math and physics. and i will talk about choir dinner(:
haha this is our first choir dinner! we are awesome(: but like, so many people werent there! ): esp from our batchh. but haha we were a bunch of retarded shizzez and i had a lot of fun(: i cannot control my laughter, if you havent realised :D once i start laughing a lot i cant stop(: oh wellzzz. you gotta love this bunch of people.
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
:D
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today is pentecost sunday.
that means that three important things happened on this date: -my church was founded woohoo. -the Holy spirit descended on the disciples/the church started forming woohoo. -GDOP was formed woohoo.
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i'm so tired it's almost 1 am and i badly need to do overdue homework! but ah well.
tagrepliess.
Kim hey kimmmm! haha ily la, you tag so much my blog feels more alive :D yes thankyou for your inspiring quotes and stuff! and oh yeah the "life doesnt stop for anyone" picture was taken for your tumblr ohnoes did i forget to credit you? haha i like reading your tumblr! continue posting yeah, love. and yes i love my family haha they are awesome i will invite you over to my house! :D and yes also, i know my batch's busking is great, right? :D glad you think so too :D THE SOLOIST WAS AWESOMEEE, i love her most 8D your reply is so long omg! xD
micht haha this is unexpected ttm! but yay now i know your secret(or not so secret) link! :D thankss, and we saw your message on the whiteboard! but we didnt get to see you haha come and visit soon then(:
stef hallooo stef! haha this random person from my lit class walked up to me and was like "hey, it's the potato man!" and i was like wts. (: yes its freaky that you read my blog.
emeline you're the best, em (:
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Saturday, May 22, 2010
10:56 PM
Take a breath I pull myself together Just another step till I reach the door You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you I wish that I could tell you something To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I won't give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice Its drowning in a whisper It's just skin and bones There's nothing left to take And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall Oh you know I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know
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idk how to make it less painful.
ily okay? sigh this is better late than never ):
i would cry with you if you needed me to. promise.
my family makes me feel loved
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8:14 PM
I love food! it makes me so happy! :D just eating nice simple home-cooked food makes me very very happy (: today, i went down for dinner and i ate egg which my bro cooked woahhh(it actually tasted quite nice) and veg and beef and a lot of other stuff and mushroom soup(which my bro cooked also what is wrong with him today O_O) and a few spoons of mutton soup and then i drank green bean soup YAY. my aunt knows i love it :D
okay it seems like i ate alot huh. but idk why i felt so HAPPYYYY.
haha and my aunt was there talking to me about... eh i forgot xD but yeah then as i was walking up i looked at my house and i thought about my familyyyy. and i decided this post will be for them! :D
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i love my family so much! i think my parents are the awesomest ever. they work hard and earn lots, and we don't spend like a lottt of time together, but they never ever ever make me feel like i'm not loved! i dont think we ever had major family problems before, hmmmm. and they are both super cool can i love my parents ahhhh. haha if we ever go bankrupt or something and had to sell all our stuff i'd really be fine about it, as long as we're all togetherr(:
my dad is so talented and smart and everything ahh! okay he's from ri, but that was last time right! he was in a gazillion ccas or something! like choir, band, judo, guitar ETCC omg i cant even remember. and he's super smart! and he's good at sports like crazy idk what he's not good at ): i can ask him about any subject and he'd know. except my mom would be better to go to for chinese.
my mom! is super awesome also! like see, my mom was chinese educated(from dhs) and my dad was english educated so like, that's the best of both worlds yayy. and she's also so smart! esp in math. and my mom was in band and guitar and basketball or something gahhh! and my parents both can sing YAY.
and they're totally not lame or anything they understand and i can be pissed off/ emo about something and not want to talk to them and i'd tell them i dont want to talk about it and they'd understand! and then after awhile i'd tell them, yay. oh and they so dont care about results, as long as i'm happy omg heartheart. me: "i'm going to fail physics!" them: "oh, really?" -smile- me: "?!"
i tell them everythingg! choir stuff. church stuff. relationship stuff yay i love my parents. oh about relationship stuff right, they are super cool! well both my brothers are attached currently, and my parents are so cute about it haha! i stalk my bro's girlfriends with them HAHAHA. (well i think my bros dont read my blog, so its okay to say, right?) lovelove.
and in the whole of my life i've seen them fight only once! when i was like P1 or something and was watching tom and jerry on tv with bro. omg so vivid. in which my mom said shut up. oh and that probably is the worst swear word i ever heard both of them say in my entire life.
and my parents' love for each other is inspiring ttm. its like they're still dating haha they are so cuteeeee seriously OMGGGGG.
haha i think one of the best things is they never lose their temper with us unnecessarily. and it's cool how i spend my entire life in their room and not my own. haha mine's just for sleeping, but when i get home i just get my stuff and jump on their bed and like cuddle in the blankets and do my stuff. and my bros used to like dominate the floor also, but lj moved to his room early this year, haha he likes solitude. and i think he was worried about posture hahaha wtv. haha plus, the internet connection is better down there :D and they nag a bit when i'm dirty, but aiya, haha it's a habit now. and i bet they secretly like it! haha once when i was pissed off i went to my room and stayed there the entire day omg so weird for me xD and they were so worried heehee.
and so much more, like how my annoying bros always tell them they want thisthis food for supper at like 12 am on a weekday (weird cravings) and my dad's so sweet and cool he just like brings them there. the list doesnt end.
okayokay. now on to my brothers. haha they two used to be people i didnt like. and i'd kick them in all the wrong places during pillow fights.
but then we all grew up. and now they're super nice(: and they're cool too haha, they have their own talents :D my family can totally be a BAND seriously we can play so many things!
yayyy! WE ARE THE COOLEST FAMILY EVER I LOVE YOU FOREVERRR.
oh and my aunt who lived with us since forever, she's not married and she's my mom's oldest sister. but she cares a lot for us and haha she's cool in her own way! and she's nice to make fun of cos everytime her face goes super red and she cant control herself when she starts laughing hahaha! and she cooks nice things! and teaches my maid to cook nice things YAY i love my aunt :D and she's so thoughtful in a awkward way haha she nags all the time but she eats her food super slowly sometimes goes to talk to our maid after she's done, because i always come down for dinner late and she's scared i will be lonely haha. either that or she's lonely herself. but hmm it works both ways! (:
and my uncle who's also my mom's older brother who lived with us for like a long time also cos he and his family... had some idk what haha. i used to not like him but nowadays i'm beginning to think he's not so bad after all, cos he must be quite lonely himself, and cos he/大姨 gave me the nice sport shoes one day before 2.4 and took super long explaning to me about how to wear it etc hahaaa epic. hha he's some sports crazy dood, goes jogging like 30 km everyday or something(he's so free) but oh well. at least he puts up with my drumming yay.
okay and if i begin on my cousins, this post will never end they rock too!
happysighhh, my family pwns(:
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thank you God, for blessing me with so muchhhh. my family, my friends, my life. i am eternally greatful, and i know that it all comes from You. i will not take anything for granted! but You give and You take away right? i have a feeling something's going to happen haha :/ hmm if anything does happen, all i ask is that You help me trust You. please also let me remember this prayer.
Amen.
:D
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okay i feeel stupid == my bro suddenly just burst out laughing in front of his comp near me like five minutes after i posted this. why? i looked at his screen and saw my blog. omggg i thought he didnt read! LOL what is this! oh well :D he's prolly gonna read this too. LZ YOU SUCK. you ego better not inflate too much i will kick you. not in wrong places dont worry(:
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to flora
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1:30 AM
omg ): i'm so so so so sorry. sigh. i'm sorry i forgot. i was so caught up with other things. i really am sorry D: i promised i'd remember, and i broke that promise.
rachiek you're right, a lot of things changed with time. but you're still important to me, omg i hope you know that.
i know you'll forgive me, or maybe you already have, but sigh this is wrong.
we need to do something!
A Night to Remember'10
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12:53 AM
mommy, it's overrrrrr! D:
sighhhh it's really over i can't believe it. yesterday i couldnt believe it was here and now i can't believe it's over. NUUUUUUU!
well yesterday night was truly great :D i think we had a fantastic audience la seriously. haha, love you, all who came to support us! thanks for the pretty flowers, i feel supremely happy when i look at it! hope you had lots of fun, like us! (:
combined! i dont know how it was, frankly. personally i thought last year's combined was better, sec one's combined was worse. but the seniors all seem to think that combined this year is good. hmmmmm. hahahahahahha i think we were blasting and rushing for a lot of the songs. little dynamics.... xD itsuki was a bit disappointinggg... and plum was superduper off for alto two doodoodoodoodooo parts!! but the audience liked it anyway :D ahhhhhhhh i think everything was okay :D me heels were killing me omg. at the end of hoj i was soo relieved. i was even more relieved when we had to walk off and i actually could command my legs to move! i was so scared they'd just collapse under me on stage! tsk! 8D
busking! AD ASTRAAAA. ily lots. ily kim and b. we rocked okay! everyone said so! really! :D IF YOU THINK SO, TAG. :D (i will be sad if no one does ): ) next year we'll start earlier and do something FABULOUS. (:
haha also, good job sec 4s(:
musical! omg this was the bestttt. haha i was so worried like anything okay! ASHLYNNA! you'll probably never see this, but you have like the whole choir loving you now. YOU ROCK. (: the audience kept laughing at everythingggg! it was super encouraging seriously, i love the audience(: haha all the scenes went quite smoothly! AHHH THANK YOU GOD. I LOVE YOU MUACKS.
my scenes! now i have like new nicknames like "potato man" or smth!!! WHAT IS THIS O_O HAHA I'M GOING CRAZY AND EMBARRASSED JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.
basically musical was a blast :D our dancing was .... for some of us, and our singing actually was quite cmi towrds the end, but i think every single one of us really enjoyed ourselves thoroughly on the stage. i'm so proud of us, rgschoir. no one else can pull this off i swear! (: people will talk about this for awhile now((((: rgschoir really made it A Night to Remember :D
i have a confession to make!(uh sound familiar, amanda?)
I LOVE RGSCHOIR WITH ALL MY HEART♥ i love you, rgschoir, i really really do.
i thank God sooo muchhhh for blessing me with the chance to know you, to love you, to spend time with you, and to sing with you.
we'll keep the faith! and we'll sing for the love of music ♥
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and yet now that concert's over, the seniors are going to be leaving soon, right? when? ): i'm gonna miss them loads.
closer
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Tuesday, May 18, 2010
9:59 PM
我的任性 我的固执 我的胡闹 我的不谅解
你的包容
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When the unexpected happens, you're caught off-guard. It's not a very nice experience. But sometimes, it leaves a tingly warm feeling in your heart. I like the unexpected, to a certain extent.
Thank you, for caring when I least expected you to.
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TWO.
i'm putting all my trust in you God. Your love never fails.
three.
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Monday, May 17, 2010
10:02 PM
this is currently what i have done for english aa:
English Alternative Assessment Loo Cheng Yi (14) 308
OMG HOW DO I START THIS AHHH.
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today i was wasting my time at the busstop waiting for 966 to come. i waited 25 minutes i think. and i was just sitting there, thinking. and as i thought and thought i got depressed. concert. pts/aas. friendships needing time and effort to sustain which i clearly lack now. God. concert notes. pile of undone homework. worship. etccc.
and then i looked up at the sky, and all was calm. it wasn't very pretty or anything, it wasn't particularly blue or clear. it was just this blueish-grey colour, like after the sky wept(cos it rained in the morning). and it was framed by the giant trees on the highway. ordinary really, but it was breathtakingly beautiful. ._.
God, you hold me now.
Brokenhearted Love
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Sunday, May 16, 2010
8:08 PM
A choir girl is always singing, wherever she goes. She is full of emotions, the intense and the fluid. She is like a white-washed wall, upon which thousands of colours play like a rainbow. She sings for the love of music, releasing the soul within her. And above all, a true choir girl loves, with all her heart, and with her voice.
concert in four, we can do this(: Rgschoir♥
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Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
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Brokenhearted Love - this is really true. I've been wondering how to help some people get through what they're facing, and i guess this really made me see things clearer.
"People who are grieving need to know that they’re not alone. They need to know that their loss is somehow your loss too. Tell them that you visited the cemetery–not for brownie points, but because you want to remember with them. Tell them that you cried in the bathtub the other day. Tell them that when you hear a certain song it takes the breath out of your lungs.
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So if you’re wondering what you can give your grieving friend, I know it sounds totally cliche, but…give them your heart. Lay it bare. Entering into their pain and sharing your experience of the loss will be profoundly comforting."
Friend I don't know where you are And I don't know where you've been Maybe you're fighting for your life Or just about to throw the towel in But if you're crying out for mercy If there's no hope left at all If you've given everything you've got And you're still about to fall Well hold on, hold on, hold on
Cos I believe always, always Our Savior never fails Even when all faith is gone God knows our pain, and His promise remains:
He will be with you, always
we'll make it through, make it through
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Saturday, May 15, 2010
12:34 AM
i think, the worst is over :D the past week has been really horrible. haha everyone was a wreck. but ad astra is still going strong yeahhh. i can't express how much Ad Astra means to meee!
thankyou everyone who've been there helping and supporting us along the way(omg this sounds like a "thank you to all my fans!" kinda speech) but most importantly, thank you God. i prayed super hard, and then everything worked out. lovelovelovee you God, above all.
5 days!!! stressssss ttm. but every year it's rushed, isn't it? xD we always make it through, in the end. hope is such a wonderful thing. when things look incredibly bleak, i must always remember that God never gives you more than you can bear. you should, too(:
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so much workkkkk! -dies- i feel bad cause i dont think i can serve this week even though i'm rostered. sighh. really dont thnk so. choir prac full dress rehearsal. 8-1.30. then main cast prac ends at like 3? then if i get home at 4... i need to do physics pt badly. and drums coming also. guy coming at 6 to set up. how to get to church by 6.30 ):
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today was Micapella concert! uhm, it's masically a miked up acapella group consisting of 6 people! AHHHH. they are freaking good i was super impressed. that means they really are good == the bass was... i swoon. I LOVE BASSES TTM. i want to marry one D: okay the eugene guy(i have no idea what section he is in) is really cute(: the tenor has a really nice and powerful voice la, even though at the start i didnt have a good impression of him cos i couldnt tell if he was a guy or girl -.- the alto was.... the perfect pitch person(: hahaaa. didn't like her voice as much as the others though, although it was definitely good as well. soprano! celeste! :D haha i was like O_O i never knew she could sing. she was very cool(:
they did like guitar sounds and chinese instrument sounds, etc! i must experiment with mine someday. and THE BEATBOXER. WAS (Y). they were all also super hilarious. so even my brother didnt follow his plan of going there and falling asleep.
they're all so GOOD.
i never knew my previous piano teacher could sing like that! they go on like tours to perform in hong kong, taiwan, etc. grrrr.
so...where do i sign up? :D
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
10:22 PM
wanting you happy was always more important than just wanting you, isn't it?
(from rachel's tumblr)
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9:58 PM
omgggg. ican'ttakethisanymore, too.
what makes you think that you have a right to ask me if i'm okay, huh? you dont know anythingg. please dont ask if you dont actually care omg i'm so pissed off. i do my job. i read people's blogs everyday not cos i'm super free, but because i understand that it's a way people update others about their lives. and i care, thus i want to know.
i like being strong for others, but i'm sorry, i can't be there for you right now cos if you havent noticed, i'm kind of crumbling myself. if i could, i would. and its annoying how you guys have my link on your blogs and then you dont read it and then you expect me to tell you whats going on. if you dont read it, it really means you dont care, seriously. like you may think that blogs arent the way people should be interacting or whatever, but face it. if we dont spend enough time together, or if you dont have a single clue about my life, is it not important that you know what i'm thinking about? if not then fine, really.
ily just officially became nothing more than three meaningless words. if you love me, how can you not want to know? how can you? or was it just nice to have someone caring for you, and not giving back?
after i go to sleep and wake up tmr, i will be okay and i will still be there for you guys if you need me. because i actually do love you. if i said it, i mean it.
when will these people realise that sometimes people they should treasure could just slip past them like that? sigh, why is it always coming back down to this.
wouldnt it be nice
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7:08 PM
"i feel like i'm on top of the world!" "it's only the second floor, dude."
(:
so hmm 2.4 today. C. yay. (: lol.
-start of emo post-
hey you two, whats up? D: i'm so sad things are all falling apart now. why!!! we can't do this now, and i think you know it D:
everything's not okay ): i wish we could all just wake up tmr and be like super good. sighsighsigh. what are we going to do now. so many expectations. so many disappointments. i have a fear of facing all of that, honestly. guyssssss. 8/7 days. i'm trying to find hope and be strong too.
i realised i havent been praying about this D: sigh God, i fail to rely on you time and time again. i'm sorry D: i need you always, when i'm happy and when im sad.
all i need is You.
depressed. is there no solution? tsk all of them seem so undesirable. false dilemma? nah. i'm sad because i always thought we were awesome. i guess we were all complacent. -slaps face-
and you, hey i realised i've not been the best seatmate ever. this might a little late, cos we're like changing seats soon and all, but i just want you to know that i understand, and i will stop distracting you during class, and i will pay more attention so i can like help you if you need any. and hmm i will stop being annoying, basically. we can excel together! (:
love you too.
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so when you find that everything is crumbling around you, perhaps it isnt the loss of everything that upsets you, its when you see all the tiny secrets, falling out of the spaces they were hiding in. only by seeing the lies, are you then able to see the blinding truth. but at the end of it all, there's nothing left to fill up what's already gone.
Every now and then I fall apart
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010
11:21 PM
It's nice to know that people appreciate the littlest things you do, you know? even when they dont know it's you. It's also nice to know that people trust you.
i wonder if you ever feel that way too. you're so confusing. we can't figure you out. like, are you good or bad? you can be a total hypocrite at times and then you can be super sweet. i dont know what to make of you. thus i shall stay away.
I love chia, because we can talk to each other about anything and everything, even about each other, and be completely honest and brutal about it. cos we understand. sighhh. will i ever find another person as special as you? i think not. (hopefully you don't see this, cos then your head would totally swell i know it) and will i ever find someone who will always want to talk to me even when most of the times i'm the one who says bye first and yet we have this mutual understanding that our love for each other is equal? haix. i think not ): chia ily. for everything.
gahhh i used to have this period of time that as hard as i want to cry, tears just won't come out. but nowadays, so many things can make me cry. or like, i think it's just things related to choir. maybe most of the things are in fact related to ad astra. i also know we have to be strong and everything, but i will confirm be super angry, and i will cry my eyes out if we are scraped. why huh. we are like, the most talented bunch of people aliveee. haha okay, not really, but when we're together we just click like magic. but what about our voices? it's honestly damn annoying when some people try less than others. and when has it become all about the solos?
we're not being the best we can be. can we all wake up now.
a note: kim your stupid tumblr, and b your stupid lj, grrr.
another note: some people who should be reading my blog arent reading it.
haha English Drama Society concert today was nothing but awesome(: i think i really undrstand what ms loo says. like even though their performance or presentation might not be perfect in terms of techinicality(like articulation of words was super lacking at times, but who am i to say this right), they looked like they were thoroughly enjoying themselves, and also they connected with the audience a lot. they weren't scared that they looked lame or anything, and they all had this look that said "i'm the best there is, what are you gonna do about it".
rgschoirrrr. i'm sure we can do this :D we'll rock 20th May.
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DRUMSET FINALLY COMING YEZZZZZZZ.
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main cast peopleee, ily all ahahaa.
but ad astra, imyD:
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Nite(: memories, lol.
someday i'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010
11:45 PM
haha i feel like launching into a lengthy post about how ad astra is awesome and how each individual is so unique and cool. but i think i'll save that for concert notes :D
i think our turkey is like, a true work of art. how can something look so cute and yet delicious at the same time? :D weiling would probably like it more, because it does look like a chicken from certain angles. but it is be a turkey! :D
but i gotta say this: kim, you have a really nice heart.
(:
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God, forgive me for today. i did something very wrong. why should i be annoying when my solo doesnt show off my voice well? i should be thankful i even have one. and even if i didnt it wouldnt matter, because i'm beatboxing for adastra and we all only have one ultimate goal- which is to sound good. and i think the part i'm most humbled about is, i shouldnt have to need to show off my voice in the first place. i dont need to get anyone's appproval but you, Lord. i need to rememeber this, pleasee.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
给我一个思念的拥抱
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Tuesday, May 4, 2010
11:42 PM
ahh. i'm missing you guys like crazy. i missed so much of your lives! and you guy missed so much of mine.. what if i didnt choose to start over and come to rgs huh? everything would be so different now. i wouldnt have joined dhs choir for nuts. haha no offense.
omg rgschoir. one thing i'll never regret. (and we'll never ever ever never ever ever never ever never ever ever forget!)
16(more like 15 now) days to awesomeness. -combined pieces.... well they're kinda collecting dust? but i'm sure we can do a great job once ms loo starts polishing again, right? :D -busking. okay guys we so need to work on this we can do everything we want to, if we put in our hearts souls and minds to it! :D i mean, we're ad astra man, come on! oh plus, we really have to make our turkey O_O -musical. it could be really fun, honestly. (: forget that some of us are out there and some of us arent. forget that some of us have solos or whatever. because when we're out there, we're just one RGSChoir.
MIEE LUBBSXZS EUUU SHOOOOO MUCHHHH! .___.
(i HAVE to remember to do concert notes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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Father And Mother I Love You
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i'm so proud of both of you! :D i dont even know if you two actually een read my blog, actually, but please please always remember to just trust God and leave everything to Him. i love you both loads(: after the hurt, comes the healing.
Some say love it is a river, that drowns the tender reed Some say love it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleed Some say love it is a hunger, an endless aching need I say love it is a flower, and you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long and you think that love is only, for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose
The Rose - Westlife
lalala
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Monday, May 3, 2010
6:48 PM
can't resist! tomato this is all YOUR FAULT i think i wasted like one hour of my life just looking through the comics. :D
